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Off my meds is another personal song. I basically poured out my heart in the lyrics. Yes, it seems dark and a lot, but these are all things that happened to me, physically and emotionally, it is about my childhood trauma and physical and mental diagnosis and addiction to opiate (due to operative positioning injuries) I had to deal with. I'm in a place now where I can talk, complain or even mourn about it. Because I am in a good place. I fought my way out of every single issue and came out stronger and more resilient. I can now "step into the light" and leave it in the past. It made me who I am today and I like myself. Because of all of this life tastes so much better, the light is brighter and my laughter harden and louder - don't stand right next to me when I laugh, just a friendly advise ;)
Video: the idea behind the video is to express this message as rough, pure and intimate as it is. Just Acey with her inner critic and the monster from outside (diseasis).
lyrics
off my meds - KY
I go down all the way to a place you can't reach.
I'm your clown, I am not what I seem on the outside.
I don't spit it out, cannot breathe, when it grows inside of me.
I can't cope with feelings that I don't know - yeah.
I come from a place with no love, no foundation of trust,
every day I would struggle alone, growing up.
I would struggle to see how you strangulate me
You would drown in your poison, then put it on me.
I'm still down on my knees, but beginning to see,
you've got no more power over me.
I will leave this behind and step into the light.
Chorus:
I'm so scared - it's killing me inside.
So scared - and nothing can make it alright.
I really wanna move on and finally get things done,
but then again everything goes wrong.
So scared - when I'm finally off my meds.
With all I feel, I try not to go insane.
Body won't heal, Russian roulette every God damn day.
(not to walk, clutch or feel)
Not to talk touch or see, scared the shit right out of me.
But I gotta move on, giving up would be wrong...
Chorus:
I'm so scared - it's killing me inside.
So scared - and nothing can make it alright.
I really wanna move on and finally get things done,
but then again everything goes wrong.
So scared - when I'm finally off my meds.
Bridge:
How would you feel if you woke up and couldn't breathe?
How would you see if everything was black?
How would you get up on your feet with all this weight upon your heart?
When you suffocate in the dark?
Chorus:
I'm so scared - it's killing me inside.
So scared - and nothing can make it alright.
I really wanna move on and finally get things done,
but then again everything goes wrong.
So scared - when I'm finally off my meds.
credits
released February 23, 2024
Song and lyrics written by Acey Jee
Arranged and produced by KY
Mixed and mastered by Pete Burns (kill shelter)
Dark. mysterious. different. lost. passionate. angry. strong.
KY's songs are danceable, hard, unique. Their sound is
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Acey's lyrics are deep, intimate and dark with personal stories about her past. unfulfilled love, sex, her battle with depression and cancer and how she has managed to survive so far. Acey's unique voice, reminds strongly of Alison Moyet or Annie Lennox....more
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